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1:我会隔一段时间就莫名其妙的大哭一次,很奇怪,一般大半个月一次,让我哭的原因也很奇怪,有时候是因为一个电影场景,有时候是一段曲子,有时候是一个专辑封面,一段文字,一个不经意听到的故事,然后我的眼泪就一直停不下来,那种感觉非常可怕,哭的时候我想到的都是一些跟我现在一点关系都没有的事情,我能想起给我留下童年阴影的那条大狼狗,那个不给我好脸色的亲戚,打过我也被我打过的同学,就很奇怪,我相信这些经历并不鲜见,大家都或多或少的有过,但是在那一瞬间这些我以为我都快忘了的画面就像过电影一样的闪现出来,然后整个世界灰暗下来,一种特别巨大,像一面墙,一尊巨像一样的恐惧和绝望一下子坍塌在我头上,我在那段时间里能够非常真切的感受到自杀者的绝望,我能体会并理解他们,然后一般会持续一个来小时,然后我能慢慢平静下来,情绪慢慢变得正常,谁也不知道我刚才崩溃过,甚至我都不太能相信我几分钟前哭的那么厉害.

A while I'll puzzling crying again, very strange, usually more than half a month time, let me cry is also very strange, because sometimes a movie scene, sometimes is a song, sometimes is an album cover, a paragraph of text, a casual heard the story, and then has been can't stop my tears, that feeling is very terrible, I want to cry To is something that has nothing to do with me now, I can think of leaving my childhood shadow of the big dog, and you give me that don't face the relatives, I played I was only a classmate, is very strange, I believe that the experience is not uncommon, everyone had more or less, but at that instant the I thought that I almost forgot picture like a movie Blink out, then the whole world dark down, a particularly large, like a wall, a bronze colossus of fear and despair suddenly collapsed in my head, and during that time I can be a very real sense of suicide of despair, I can feel and understand them, and then generally lasts for an hour or so, then I can calm down slowly, slowly becoming normal mood, no one Knowing that I just broke down, I can't even believe how much I cried a few minutes ago.